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    My name is Susy and I have so much to share with you. First thing is that i have two of the most amazing children the world has ever known. Dylan and Arya are my life. They have so much life and I love being able to capture there moments just like my father captured mine. I love my job as a mommy and a photographer.

    In this blog I will share my passion for Film photography, color of my children's world and of course my photography. I hope that you will follow me on our life adventures.

Dear me | Kansas City Mo Photographer

Today Is one of the hardest day’s every year for me. Today marks 11 year’s since my father has passed away. I’m still so unsure of how to heal from his death, and every year I wonder when the pain will be gone. I have come to realize that the pain will never fade because his memory is everlasting. I deiced to write a letter to my 15 year old self.

Dear Me,

You have no idea the pain that awaits you in your life time. So much pain, that will mold you into the wonderful mother that you will be. You are to young to lose your father, but if it is now or years later its never easy to lose him.

The day that he died March 30th 2002 was a perfect spring day. You just arrived home for orientation at the city’s amusement park. I remember you stoping and searching the sky. You thought what a wonderful day. When you opened your front door, there was a moment where something felt different then the moment before. I remember you looking at the phone to call your mother to let her know you where safe at home, but you noticed 10 missed calls.

As you picked the phone up to dial grandma Kunkle your heart sunk. Not knowing why. Grandma won’t say a thing to you, won’t tell you what’s going on. She will demand to speak to mother.

Not seconds later that you hung the phone up with mom, does she call you back….the words,”I’m on my way home!” With no other explanation. You of course refuses to hang up with her, and all she says is the same thing over and over. Minutes go by and out of the blue you say,”Mom, it’s my dad isn’t it? My father is dead?!”

What seemed a second later, was mother running into the door and Susie you will drop to your knees screaming. This moment was almost a black out! Everything was so blurry from this day but yet so fresh and real.

This was the hardest thing you will suffer from. Once you survive this, you will survive it all.

I wish that I could change so much of my life, including all the bad thing’s in life. Susie you can’t let your self down! You are the strongest person in this world.

-Me.

The missing him part is the most dreadful thing. I want so badly for him to be here that it hurts. Having him miss everything in my life. I never knew my father other then in a child’s eyes. I only remember small thing’s about him like the way he liked his coffee, his favorite flavor of cake.  The after dinner talks on the front steps of our house, and the way he annoyed me as any father would a 15 year old. I regret the way I treated him, it is unfair that he never got a chance to be apart of my life. More importantly apart of my children lives. I still believe that if he was alive some of the thing’s my mother put me thew would of been so different. I just thank the Lord for what I have and what he has given me. There is more to life then just the bad. There is so much good and kindness and I learned this from my father. He was a great christian man, who I will never forget!

 

Letters to Our Sons | Kansas City, Mo Photographer

Dear Son,

My little man of wonder, You are truly one of a kind. You are so full of life and love. I know that life has already been hard on you and that sometimes you don’t understand why things happen. It breaks my heart when you are sad, it breaks it even more when I know that you truly don’t understand. I’m trying my best to raise you better then I was raised by my mother.

You have no idea how lucky you are to have me as your mother. I wish that my mother did half the things that I do with you. Not once do I remember a bed time story, and that is truly my favorite moment’s with you. When we make a fort that hangs from the celling, or a crazy thing we make from cardboard, those are our moments. Your childhood is magical and I want you to soak it up as much as you can. Again, I am trying my best to make your childhood everlasting, one that I never had.

I’ve made mistakes, lost my temper/patiences, but never once have I ever stoped loving you. Never will I abandon you, or let you think less of yourself. You are a humble child and the world is awaiting you, in all that you do.

You outshine any child I have ever known or come across. Your a smart, funny and silly boy.

I am proud to call you mine!!!!

Here are the Top 10 thing’s you did or said this month that I never want to forget!

10. After I play in Dylan’s room with him, as I walk away he grabs my legs and says, “ I’m going to keep you forever!”

9. His new name for his sister is, “Baby Arya Princess”

8. “Mommy? I want to be a farm man, so I can milk a cow.” (Dylan also thinks that milk is cow pee) haha

7. “I’m batman mommy! I love fighting crime!”

6. When Dylan tell’s Arya a story he starts out with, “By the time.” lol Instead of Once upon a time. Cracks me up every time!

5. “I can’t wait to grow big, I hate being small.”

4. Dylan playing his video game he says, “I’m the big brother and I’m going to beat you up bad guys!” Lmao

3. Dylan talking to me about his sister “Mommy, I really love her. I mean it mom, I really love her!”

2.“Eww…Baby, Arya Princess spit on me!”

1. Dylan,“Ugh. I have a booger in my nose!” I said, “Go blow it.” Dylan responds,“no, I’m going to go pick it.”

 

Love your  Mommy-

 

Now that you have read my letter to my son,

please take a moment and head over to

Carol from Freckle Face Photography

Where she wrote to all three of her daughters! <3

 

March 25, 2013 - 8:58 pm

Letters to my Daughter #2 | Closely Knit Photography - […] comments, then I invite you to click on over to my friend Susie DeSha’s blog to check out her letter to her son. She’s a photographer in Kansas City, Missouri, and does lovely […]

March 26, 2013 - 12:57 am

Sarah - Aww, he looks like he’s having so much fun!! Great series of photographs- and a lovely letter too. You’re doing a great job Mamma! :)

March 26, 2013 - 9:10 am

KimG - Awww! Love those quotes. Wish I had done that with mine when they were younger…oh the things they say both funny and sweet!
Love the implied motion in your photos of him because as we all know they are full of motion!

March 26, 2013 - 1:41 pm

Tara - What a fun series of images! I love keeping track of their quotes, there are so, so many I wish I would have written down!

March 26, 2013 - 6:45 pm

Faye S - Ahh he is lucky to have you as a mom! Great pictur!

March 27, 2013 - 1:34 am

Amber - Be proud of that little boy you’ve raised <3 Love the photos – he's having so much fun! :)

April 8, 2013 - 10:12 pm

Kate D. - love the action shots you got! and he is very lucky to have you as a mama! you obviously care about him so very, very much.

April 16, 2013 - 3:47 pm

Carol - Susie! LOVE your letter and these images! What a wonderful activity to capture and he is so lucky to have a mommy that makes box trains for him lol!! Love it!

Union Station | Kansas City Mo Children Photographer

After about 3 rained out session, we deiced to go ahead and head to Union Station! Union Station is such a wonderful place to shoot. I must say that these little girls are such a delight! This is one of my favorite sessions.

March 20, 2013 - 9:58 pm

Mercedes - beautiful family and you are just so talented I love seeing it all!
xoxo,
Mercedes

March 22, 2013 - 2:39 am

kayla - how adorable!!! love all of them!